Baking session with Bess

Bake with friends Check! I've always wanted to bake with my friends. Working together to make something eatable is definitely fun.

Bess is so busy with her works at her steamboat shop after finishing her A level. She was my housemate last year. She is smart, pretty and friendly. She is the one who got 10A+ and also JPA scholarship. I like to hang out with friends who make me comfortable to talk to. Bess is definitely the one of them! I remembered she always asked me to share foods she brought from Miri and study with her. Memories... I am really glad to have her as my housemate last year. Luckily we still keep in touch.

We managed to have a baking session today. I know she can bake very well like macarons, buns and cakess so i asked her to teach me the ways to make macarons. Macarons is very hard to make even Bess failed 5 times! I was surprised when i heard that. I think maybe there are some steps we have to really take care of. Patience is vital while baking. You have to make sure the cream is whipped and some steps you have to do it gently. The cookies of macarons have to stand for half an hour. We thought we was going to fail this time cos the cookie can't be sticky after half an hour. Fortunately, it worked after an hour. Thank God. Lol. So then we made green tea filling and used some cream cheese filling that she made last time. I am satisfied with the macarons we made even though there are some cracks. The way Bess bake is kind of different. She goes free style. She didn't plan everything before hand. What she bake depends on what's in her fridge. And one thing that is different is that she didn't take out every ingredients before she baked but while she is baking. But i used to take everything out before i bake cos i always feel so lost in the middle of baking. lol.

She is going to UK for studies in September soon. I am glad to catch up with her after so long.To me, she is a happy pill who got weird laughter and deep dimple. Hopefully we can meet up more often after this.

Layer cake made by Bess

Cute Bess with her new spec

Before baking 

 There are some photos in my phone so maybe i should share some of them here

Went to my dad's Malay friends house for curry during Hari Raya

Congratz mum for getting 3rd place in the singing competition. It was unexpected!

My fav matcha latte

Deep thoughts

I blog more frequently nowadays. Whenever i have thoughts in my head, i wanna blog about it. I guess i wish to share it with you guys. Yea the one who is reading this. In fact, i don't really tell people that i have a blog. So let's keep it to us!

                              

 


It is Stephanie's birthday today! Skype with her last night. I felt some awkwardness in the beginning of the chat cos we haven't meet each other for quite a long time. It's always good to talk to her again. We talked about the reunion that i missed and something about uni. I started to feel the stress. Like what Steph said, stress is actually a good way to make you wanna do better. I failed and fell down again and again last year. That 's why i lost my confidence. I must gain it back from now on.

Sang birthday song for the birthday girl and i am honoured to be the first one who wished her. But after that we get interrupted by the annoying Siow Le. Siow le asked a lot about me and she scolded me. The words that make me feel the worst is this,' Among Amy, Yennie and me( cos we have almost the same name), you are the worst.' Yennie used her time wisely. She went to different places to work. She gained lots of experiences. Amy started her uni and she is doing well. And me. I am exactly nothing. However, i didn't blame her for what she told me. True friend tell you what you have to know. I thought about it before. I didn't want to do nothing at home so then i went to work. But i quit the job cos of some crap reasons. I did look for job again. But my parents and I always have different opinions in finding a suitable job. For dad, he is afraid that i will start to love working and refuse to study again. So then he asked me to stay at home to learn cooking, to study notes and to settle stuff for uni. I wanna do so many things but yet, i am not allowed to do it.

The words keep spinning around my head until i fell asleep. My weakness is that i get influenced by other people's words easily. I think i should have done better but i didn't. I could have tried harder but i didn't. Fail me. hahaha. Since i can't change the past, i will do better in the future. It will be a better me i guess.

Congratulations to the smart Ginny who got a good result in her exam! Chukahae! Why can you be so smart and kind at the same time! I am proud of her. Hope you enjoy your life there. Don't overthink too much. You are way better than you think. God bless you!

Goodluck for Lisa who is going to start her exam soon! Just do your best and i know you can do this! Have faith in yourself! Thanks for always helping me and lending me your hand when i need it. God bless you too!

All the best to Sammy who is having her Grade 12 exam this year. Will definitely visit you guys soon! Hope you are doing well! Don't be too stress. You are so smart so i know you can make it!

And Happy Birthday to the awesome girl, Stephy!! Hope you have a sweet 19th! Stay sweet and kind! Kindness is what makes you different. Wish you can find your love one like what you wish to. Goodluck in everything you do. Love ya <3 <3 <3

Quote of the day:

'Keep moving forward. It's the way to live life'

New Blog Template

Just changed my blog template to 'Watercolour' template! I have been trying to change it like couple of times but it couldn't really work. Saw a youtube video which actually teach me on how to change my blog template. I just followed what she did without knowing the reason and.. IT WORKED! Thank God. Thanks to Ginny cos she lend me a hand too :p

Finally found a room to stay in KL. It is a middle room. The room seems good. I'm excited cos i will have my own space soon. I enjoy spending time alone. It was really inconvenient to share room with others. Luckily i don't have to share this time! Will be moving in by 1st August. I talked to one of the housemates who is going to start the same course as me. Such a coincidence! Just hope everything goes fine now.

Did this test on FB and found it sooo true! Maybe not really for some parts. I used to hide everything to myself cos i think it's better not to bother people with my problems. I wanna bring laughter to people instead. Do i look like i'm not approachable? maybe sometimes. I always heard people say i look fierce when i'm not smiling. I will try to smile more next time. I like to hear other people problems. I feel honoured if they wanna share it with me. However, sometimes i find myself too passionate which i think may scare other people away. I will try to be more cool then. 

I'm afraid of showing my true-self. I am actually very impatient. When i am in a good mood, i will talk non-stop and when it comes to High Level, i can be very crazy. For friends, they will think that i am quiet. For close friends, they will probably think that i'm crazy. But sometimes i don't even talk. My parents will always wonder about what happened to her daughter but actually i am just not in the mood. Weird me. I will be okay when the mood come back. Mood swing come all the time. Sigh. 

Tried to make pizza last week. I love homemade foods. It isn't really hard to make. You just have to take care of the dough. I enjoy making foods myself in the kitchen.(if it's not too hot). 

Bought mask from 'Guardian'. It's been a long time since i apply mask. It is a Lily Mask from Jeju island which is located in Korea. I love this product. It actually smells really good.

Visited my primary school. It brought back a lot of memories! I used to be very tiny and black. I think that's why they can't really recognize me now. I will never forget the teacher who asked me copy hundreds of Chinese essay during CNY. I still hate her, even now. She ruined my childhood. However i still had a lot of sweet memories there. How i wish i can go back to school again to have free ice milo! But you know what..there's no 'return' button in our life.

Mr.John! Miss him so much!

 SG4 reunion

Oppa is so charming. Screenshot it after watching his videos on insta. Melts my heart right away

Mum baked some chocolate muffins today. I don't even dare to try it now cos i will probably fall sick after eating that in this hot weather. Dad asked me to go see Chinese medicine doctor cos it will be better to take Chinese medicine to adjust it back.

Left 4 more weeks i will end this pretty long long holiday. Starting from December last year till July 2015. It is about 8 months! 

Gosh! If u ask me what did i do and what have i achieved during this long holiday, it can be a tough question. Lol. Let me flashback a bit about what did i actually do during this holiday.

I stayed at home most of the time during the holiday. High school friends were all studying in other countries. That's why my best companion was my family, phone, and my laptop. Imagine life without a friend you can actually talk to and be with you. Imagine your friends start to have their own life. Imagine life with you and social media only. It feels like you are living on a deserted island. Lol. It is definitely not a good feeling to be honest.

I went to work in March. It was a good experience if something didn't happen. I get to promote in the bakery like ' Hi do u wanna try our banana sliced cake. There is no preservatives and colouring.'. The client will either say 'oh should i give a try?' or 'oh it's okay i don't like it' OR just walk away. The case' walk away' happened to me a lot of times = =. You know i won't do that if i didn't forced to do. I took some time to do that cos if not, the boss will come to me and said' Promote more so we can sell more ah!' That's the pressure. I seriously didn't want to do that but then i think i make it after all! 

Also, I learnt to put the price tag and arrange the buns by filling in the empty space. I memorized the names of the buns in a short time but not the cakes. And ya i am quite happy when i get to do the service and talk to customers. I was trained to be a cashier. That was quite nerve-wrecking. I went panic when the customers took many different kinds of buns at one time. I remembered i sweated a lot and my hands were all wet so i can't really hold the money. lol. There were only three workers and one manager. I get along well with them after about one week. The reason i quit was because it is so so tiring to stand for 11 hours even though when there is no customer and also some disturbances. My legs were numb but the good thing is that i lost some weight. HAHA. 

I baked, cooked, and watched dramas. I wondered what else can i do. Maybe draw or do some housework. I think that is what they call 'lifeless' Nothing much i can do. I couldn't go anywhere. My parents prefer me to stay at home. I am really tired of doing all the housework. I have to do that every day and night because I will be scolded if i don't. Sigh. What is life.

I learnt to read Korean words last month. It is all about the vowel and consonants. I can sing Korean song now cos i can read but too bad i can't really understand. I just know some basic words like 'qinggu'(friend), 'bundae/busun'(what), 'hakkyu'(school), 'halsuissoyo'( i can do it) and some other words. It is fun and interesting but i will stop it now cos i actually don't use it and there are a lot of vocabs you have to memorize. 

I will always sleep at 2am and wake up at 11 am. It feels great to have enough sleep.During the past few months, i wish time pass faster. But i think time flies pretty fast now. I don't even know why months past by so fast. It is already July. Life is cruel. I should cherish time when i am still young. This will be the last year with '1'. I will be 20 soon. Please Don't come too soon kay.

Big Bang is a great band. I love their songs so so much. They sing well, look good and quite funny. I replay their songs over and over without getting sick of it. Their songs are just too nice. Hope there will be more coming soon.