My mum has a bad tempered. Normally she won't calm down and solve the problems together but she will shout and curse people instead. If the matters go serious and when she is really mad, she will go insane and throw stuffs.
Back to the old days, my parents like to quarrel. They can quarrel about anything. As long as that is what she wants, she will do it whatever. She doesn't care about anything or anyone. I am really pity of my dad. He can't even decide what he wants to do. In fact, he can't do anything. He can't go out with his friends; he can't go to the dinner even though the boss asked him to. He has no freedom and rights to do anything.
My mum never pay attention to my studies. Maybe she did when i was studying in kindergarten. I did really bad in primary school. This might because there was no one who can guide me when i was lost. I went to Australia to visit my cousins when i was 12. I saw the differences between my life and theirs. Starting from that day, i decided to study really really hard so that i can have a brighter future instead.
I didn't study at a well-known high school. There was a lot of bad influences around me. Thanks to God cos He guide me and tell me what is good and bad. I chose to study hard and ignored other things. I remembered when i was having my PMR and SPM test, my mom told me "i don't think you can get a good result maybe 2 A's are enough for you." I was really angry and wondered why she didn't encourage me but irritate me. Luckily i worked hard and got what i want.
Same thing happens now. She doesn't know what's happening to me now. When other aunties or uncles asked about my studies and asked when will i start uni again, she was blurred. Sooo upset.
Her attitude makes me nuts especially when she is trying to use her temper to solve the problems. This is what makes me really wanna leave home. So i decided to go study away from home to escape from everything. She always told me i cant do anything without her but I DID! I can do everything by myself!!!
She never skype with me last year. My dad was the only one who did. I never get a call from her also. That's actually pretty sad.
Today, i was texting with Sammy (cousin from Aussie). She asked me to visit her and suggested me to work there also since i still have four months of holiday. She could bring me to go around and we can even go shopping together!!! I went to ask my dad to see whether i could really go. I told him i gotta work and earn money and also spend my holiday there for several months. He said OKAY! but when the question came to my mum. Again. As what i have expected, i got scolded again. She asked me to stop daydreaming. Actually i asked her to let me go visit my friend in KL few weeks ago. Same thing happened to me :( I never ask for anything since i was a kid. Please let me decide my own things.
I just really hope that she can understand me more.
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